desperate, lonely, tension etc....

Why cant anyone understand what i'm feeling now?hmm......i feel.......desperate.......i wish only 1 person who can really understand what is going on with me.......but....unfortunately.....althought i told person what is happening to me......it's juz like the person is not listening or care what i'm saying at all......oh god.....i feel sad,terrible,scared,everything......hmm......audition coming......i'm scared......i scared tat i will failed in the audition......and if i failed......i will let many ppl down.....oh.....i feel terrible now ........i don't even wan to think of the place.......but....it's hard....please........somebody advices.....tears almost falls down....but i juz can be tough and never let the tears falls from my eyes.......will i come back tomy hometown often when i went to kl?i wish i could come back every week........but think of it......it's hard....i can only come back twice a week....it makes me sucks......why cant perak have the courses i wan.......so tat i wont leave my hometown till such far place......oh god.......please help me.....i feel terrible......i feel wan to cry.....i wish to tell the person but even the person doesn't hears what i trying to tell........i feel......sucks.............sigh..........