i'm tension enough.. many things happen

haiz.. so many things happen.. i don't even know what i going to do.. haiz.. i don't even know why i can treat ppl so nice.. but in the opposite way.. they treat me like 'kanasai'.. i juz don't know why.. haiz.. should i quit becoming so call.. good guy.. and juz become who i'm only.. without caring what other ppl think of me.. don care what they say me.. don't care what they backstabed me.. i losing 1 very very good friend.. soon.. i juz don't know whether i will see this friend ever again or not.. i gonna miss this friend.. haiz.. ever since i come kl.. when i meet this friend.. my tears sometimes will flow.. haiz.. i juz wish i can take care of this friend.. but i think it's impossible.. haiz.. nothing much i can do also.. haiz.. who can help me.. nowadays.. my heart very pain.. my mood is bad.. no mood practice.. no mood chat or even sms.. haiz.. how can i improve??? i juz don't know what is the next step i can do.. what my heart really want now is.. i juz wish i can accompany my very very best friend to wherever this friend go.. there are many things which i don't even know how to express.. haiz..

over!!! too over!!!

i cant believe i will have such classmate.. if u wan backstabbed me plz say it in front of me.. u are not as good as anyone!!! haiz.. 24/6 is semester 1 choir exam.. well.. this idiot guy.. keep on blaming other ppl.. come on.. plz.. use ur fucking brian.. choir is about team work.. NOT blaming on other ppl!!! and WHY U BLAME MY FRIEND AND SAY HE SING WRONG U DAMN BLOODY IDIOT!!! i know u are good in ur major instrument... but it doesn't mean that u are good in everything.. u don't know anything about music!!! make me real angry when i heard that.. if ever again u say my friend.. i will not let you go that easily!!!! damn u!!! i doesn't know why teacher say u play ur instrument better then mine.. damn u damn u!!!!! i cant even think of it.. i don't even know why i will have this such 'good' classmate.. i don't even know how long i can stand facing u.. sorry.. that many bad words used in this blog.. but i cant stand it le.. he is a JERK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur table manners are worse and i don't enjoy my food whenever i sit together with u in a same table.. u are worse then a jerk.. slp in the class while teacher are talking in front.. say till so proud u wake up so early for jogging.. so what!!! so also can wake up on 4am.. not only u.. u dumb head.. my hometown wake up at 3am.. and yet they din even complaining about anything.. proud of yourself that u wake up that early.. fuck you la...

haiz.. sad but what i can do??

haiz.. many things happen but there is nothing i can do.. haiz.. i don't know what i can do anymore.. i losing something important in my life again.. i don't wish this to happen.. but soon it will happen.. i'm sad.. tears flowing from my eyes again.. and i don't know what i going to do.. haiz.. i wan2 cry out loud and hug u and saying i will follow you wherever u go and stay by ur side and will never leave u.. this is what i willing to do and i will never regret on what i said.. haiz.. but i know that this won't happen.. i truely sad.. and tears started to flow from my eyes as i started to write this blog.. only god can give me ans on what i should do.. i really cant forget the happiness we gone together.. it's so memorable.. but.. haiz.. it's just like the end of my world.. i will go back to a lonely place where i belong to as usual.. haiz.. someone!!!!! plz!!! i'm sad!!!