i had enough..

i had enough! Enough of everything! I don't know why i will so crazy wit this person..oh yes, i really love you..i was so stupid..i felt myself stupid..i see you unhappy..but i cant do anything..i see your eyes..and i wish tat you were happy..tat's what i wan2 see from your eyes..i don't know why..i cried when i think of you..how sad you are.i cried..my tears flows again..i don't know why i was so crazy about you..i don't know why! I was so fucking in love wit you..but i juz cant control myself..i feel i wan to release myself from this pain..i wan2 help you..but i cant..i don't know why i miss you so much..i feel tat now you are trying to avoid me..i hope tat this is my wrong feeling..if you think you don't like on what other ppl said about up during on lunch or anywhere..i willing to leave myself alone so tat you wont heard any unwanted things from their mouth anymore..

hmm.. why so many sad things?

i juz don't know since when, where, why i will felt so in deep love with this person.. fine looking person, funny, friendly.. but.. faith have made us cant be together forever.. haiz.. i cant do anything.. this is what the god wan me to gain through.. the road which my god have decided for me.. i cant do anything.. but.. in my whole life.. i never never felt in so deep love.. this can be say is the first time.. buy why.. why must be the person? i cant figure out why.. why it's you.. i miss u everyday.. every hour, every minute, every single second.. i wish juz to hug u.. haiz.. but i juz don't know what my heart really want.. what my heart really wish for.. what the god want me to do.. haiz.. it's seems like.. i really love you.. really really love you.. haiz.. but i think i have to forget it.. 1990+2013-3980= a decision which i have made in that age of mine.. is either i like it or not.. i will leave you.. alothught i know.. till the age.. or till when.. the feeling toward u.. the happy moment we went together.. i will remember.. loud and clear in my mind.. i never ever mind what type of person are u.. what looking u having right now.. but.. for me.. u are perfect.. excellent.. 100% the type i wan.. haiz.. i think.. i have to give a word to myself.. that is 'forget about the dream you want!'