i feel.. suffer..

haiz.. through out this week.. i dono whether am i gonna do well in the future when i at kl?? well.. anything could happen.. this week is my bro birthday.. well bought a cake, present, uh.. wat else?? oh.. bring some friend to my shop and celebrate v him..well. as i see his face and other of my friends were so happy.. i knew i having good friends right beside me.. well tat day was 24th december.. xmas eve.. i wondering why m'sia don't snow..i like snow very much.. i hope.. someday.. i will feel the snow and touch it v my owned hand.. well.. merry xmas to everyone.. xmas.. i hope i will only receive forgiveness from everyone and tat will be my biggest gift ever.. well.. as i was packing my stuff.. i was thinking of something.. wat am i gonna do if i cant do well at kl?? well..this could be a question tat kept to myself.. and.. there what a feeling which could make me feel.. sad and make my eye watery as i noe i gonna leave.. i really gonna miss everyone in my hometown.. well.. i guess every student who left their hometown for further studies will miss their home town to.. anyway.. wat i can only do is.. i gonna miss u all very very much.. well..it's been a year tat all my friends went for their further studies.. now it's my turn.. gambattey!!!

bye bye!!!

well.. christmas coming and i think days for me to enjoy myself in my hometown teluk intan left not even a month.. i sometimes feels.. wan to leave here as fast as possible.. but sometimes.. i feel i don't even wan to leave this place.. during december.. many things happen.. sweet memory, bad memory and.. many more.. when i will be coming back?? oh, well.. i gonna miss my hometown real much.. well.. i have pass the audition and i was very happy bout it.. but i was so sad.. coz i couldn't play well my piano during the audition.. i miss some notes.. and i was so scared.. but.. luckily.. i did it!! Oh, here i come.. the dream tat i been dreaming since i was small.. has finally come.. i will be entering a music school and i hope i may do well in my studies.. to the way of becoming a professional player.. oh gosh.. the fess to study was so expensive.. it need about rm50k (at least) to study 3 years diploma course.. well.. although i been having some accomodation prob for the 1st semester.. but i hope everything will be going fine.. piano class cost me around rm150 (per month) and flute class will be costing me rm80 (per hour).. wow.. guess wat.. i need a quite number of money to study.. gosh.. it kills me.. i'm scared i cant do well for the courses i choose.. it's hard.. oh.. plz.. help me.. someone.. well anyway.. i juz can do wat i cant effort to do only.. anyway.. wat i can do is.. practice, study, practice,study.....continues over and over and over.. anyway..

merry christmas and happy new year to all my teluk intan friends.. i will miss u all!!!