hmm.....

my theory grade 5 just over today.. hehe.. i'm so happy.. but i doesn't know whether i can pass or not.. haiz.. hmm.. i don't know what happen to me.. i feel i wan2 cry.. haiz.. i just feel so.. i don't know why.. haiz.. i just wish the person can be beside me and i could cry on shoulder.. haiz.. i wish a person.. anyone.. as long i feel safe with the person and cry on the person.. i really trying to forget the love.. but.. i just cant!! i just fucking cant!! i really really love the person.. but.. it end up.. we have to go separate ways.. u have ur way.. i have my way.. whenever i be with u.. i just feel happy.. i wan you to be happy.. but i can only wish u.. tat's all.. haiz.. nothing much i can do.. haiz.. i wish.. u will happy forever.. i becoming who i'm.. who i truly am.. a person who has no heart feeling.. anymore....

i belive in you..

I believe, though you are not beside me

it wouldn't end like this.

I believe, the way it will come to me

just a bit far to come to me.

all in the past memories

i hurt myself and cried.

i wish you won't cry as how i cried,

with no tears i wish you

to send off me easily.

i know one day

you will come back

i believe in you

I'll be waiting for you. you are the only one for me

I believe, because i would cry

you couldn't be not able to cry

I believe, my flowing tears will

return you back to me

inside of my stopping eyes glance

your images are hit upon, so it makes me cry

i wish you don't cry as much as me

with no tears i wish you

to send off me easily.

i know one day

you will be back

i believe in you

waliao.. stupid classmate..

why i so bad luck will have this classmate.. u killing me in accapella.. fuck u.. tempo din count.. din practice.. fuck! fuck!.. i see i wan beat u long time ago.. haiz.. please don think u have car i don't have car.. u are only small little fucking kancil.. so don try to show off.. fuck u.. my car is much more better den ur kancil.. i don't need u to come cheras and fetch me to school.. i got leg, i got hand.. i can choose to drive or take lrt.. i don't need ppl like u to fetch me.. even though every fucking human in this world die i also wont call u fetch me.. fuck you.. and please don't backstabbed my best friend.. he din say any bad word about u.. so please don backstabbed him.. you are not good as anyone.. fuck you.. cau cibai.. ppl using piano u come and rebut with ppl.. what the fuck.. i see u i really wan shoot u kao kao

moody

well.. i not sure.. nowadays.. i keep on moody.. why? because of what? haiz.. i really don't know.. jealousy.. bla bla bla.. when can i only be truely myself.. i wish to be like how i'm last time.. it will be much more better.. don't care what other ppl say about me.. i wish to be like tat.. i really lost.. losing myself.. i don't know why i will love u so much.. i juz don't know.. i see u sad.. i was really really sad.. even in class i din hear what the teacher saying.. coz i keep on worry about you.. i never stop thinking about you.. i never never stop thinking about you.. i feel.. i really in love with u.. i wan someone to take away my feeling towards u.. but i scared.. our friendship will gone forever.. haiz.. i love u..

i had enough..

i had enough! Enough of everything! I don't know why i will so crazy wit this person..oh yes, i really love you..i was so stupid..i felt myself stupid..i see you unhappy..but i cant do anything..i see your eyes..and i wish tat you were happy..tat's what i wan2 see from your eyes..i don't know why..i cried when i think of you..how sad you are.i cried..my tears flows again..i don't know why i was so crazy about you..i don't know why! I was so fucking in love wit you..but i juz cant control myself..i feel i wan to release myself from this pain..i wan2 help you..but i cant..i don't know why i miss you so much..i feel tat now you are trying to avoid me..i hope tat this is my wrong feeling..if you think you don't like on what other ppl said about up during on lunch or anywhere..i willing to leave myself alone so tat you wont heard any unwanted things from their mouth anymore..

hmm.. why so many sad things?

i juz don't know since when, where, why i will felt so in deep love with this person.. fine looking person, funny, friendly.. but.. faith have made us cant be together forever.. haiz.. i cant do anything.. this is what the god wan me to gain through.. the road which my god have decided for me.. i cant do anything.. but.. in my whole life.. i never never felt in so deep love.. this can be say is the first time.. buy why.. why must be the person? i cant figure out why.. why it's you.. i miss u everyday.. every hour, every minute, every single second.. i wish juz to hug u.. haiz.. but i juz don't know what my heart really want.. what my heart really wish for.. what the god want me to do.. haiz.. it's seems like.. i really love you.. really really love you.. haiz.. but i think i have to forget it.. 1990+2013-3980= a decision which i have made in that age of mine.. is either i like it or not.. i will leave you.. alothught i know.. till the age.. or till when.. the feeling toward u.. the happy moment we went together.. i will remember.. loud and clear in my mind.. i never ever mind what type of person are u.. what looking u having right now.. but.. for me.. u are perfect.. excellent.. 100% the type i wan.. haiz.. i think.. i have to give a word to myself.. that is 'forget about the dream you want!'

love..why love?

why love a person is wrong..? You cant accept me, it's ok..i'm used to be lonely..i used to be single..what can i do? I dwn to be a middle person..i can only sit aside and pray for your happiness..i wish you to be happy always..we can only be best friend but cant be together for forever..haiz..why love a person so difficult..having a burden..i love you..but law doesn't say love a person is wrong..i feel anytime from know i will start leaving you and never talk to you anymore..since i'm a burden for you and make you feel i blocking your life..haiz..what should i do? I just wish for some advice and listener..but i'm too lonely..i think i don't even deserve a best friend..

hoping for the things which is impossible

i just don't know why.. day before i leave kl.. i told u all my heart.. tat is the sound of my heart.. now at kl.. i miss u.. i really really miss u.. for 24 hour every week i miss u.. not a single day i take a break.. coz i really love u.. haiz.. i took ur photo along.. so i can see u everyday.. i juz wish i could heard ur latest news.. be the 1st person to update ur latest news.. but.. it looks like i was juz dreaming.. i love u.. i really love u since the day i meet u.. but.. it seems it's impossible.. i am hoping for something which is impossible.. i express all my feelings towars u.. and tat is all my word.. truly word from my heart.. but.. are u reading my msg? are u listening to wat i said?? guess not.. haiz.. i happy to be with u.. u like who.. i have no right to stop u.. i think we shall be friends only.. keep on hopping for the things which is impossible give me no meaning.. haiz.. i hope u happy always.. i will pray for u everyday.. i love u..

holiday..

such boring holiday.. well.. can't think of it that when holiday things which i don't wish to happen will happen.. well.. it all ends for now.. i feel.. i went back to my lonely life again.. with no friends.. and all alone.. why i will have this feeling? i feel i been left behind.. i was sad.. but wat i can do? nothing i can do also.. haiz.. well.. i think i deserve it.. in a room which full of darkness.. be alone with no friends.. all of them have 2 faces.. don't know which is real and which is fake? why when i treat someone good and they have to treat me back bad.. and even worse.. haiz.. am i that easily being bully?? or is my attitude problem?? well whatever it is.. i feel nothing.. been 11 years i been lonely.. with no friends.. feel being use again.. when i'm useless i' just like a piece of junk, being throw away, when i can be use, i'm a 'temporally' treasure.. well.. why can't i continue my life?? be strong and fulfill my dream since i was small.. don't care what people back stabbed me, what they say behind me, how bad i'm as long i can improve, accept critic from other ppl.. although the feeling is hard to accept.. but it's normal for me.. cry before in a lonely dark room.. but no one can listen what is the sound of my heart looks like.. it's worse then everything else..

what hapen!!!!!

haiz.. sunday 03 july 2009.. at kl.. 1st accident.. hit ppl's car butt.. haiz.. so bad luck.. my cute little horrible kancil hit a nice little devil honda city (old version).. what a good day.. haiz.. what to do.. the person request me to pay rm300.. fuck u!! ur honda butt is not as terrible as u think and u dare to take rm300 from me.. the lady say she wan report to the police but i refuse to. because if i were to report.. i have to pay for it.. might as well we settle it personally.. u fixed the car and take the receipt to me.. and i pay.. i hope nothing happen.. i really in bad luck on tat day.. haiz.. 04 july 2009.. my cute little horrible kancil give me trouble again.. water boil. fucking car.. why u so many problem.. hit ppl butt, water boil for 3 times.. non stop giving me problem.. why wan bully me lidat.. cost me rm200 something juz to fixed u.. and the money which i suppose to pay the fees have to give pay juz to repair u.. haiz.. good car.. hope to sell u at once.. haiz.. good day.. good news.. being scolded.. haiz.. i also don't wish for the incident to happen.. but end up.. being scolded.. good good.. very good..

a story of a best friend of mine..

i was happy.. that my aural teacher say my aural improving.. haha.. i was so happy.. and my sight singing improving also.. haiz. next week is my mid term exam.. haiz.. i have no money use in kl.. i must save in everything regarding to money.. haiz.. i was unhappy, scared.. tears flow again from my eyes.. are u really gonna leave?? will we meet again?? haiz.. i wish miracle will happen.. i juz wan u back.. i don't wish u to leave me.. and also leave other friends as well.. haiz.. my parents tell me that.. in this world.. there are no true friends.. but it was wrong.. because i found 1.. in my school.. and i never have this such good friend.. i was so so so so happy to have this buddy.. we were so close till my friend ask us whether are we brothers? i laugh.. it's just because we always been together, same our feelings together, talk with each other when 1 of us unhappy, and din count or even bother in treating who eat, paying taxi fees, or willing to help each other in taking stuff although it's on 3rd floor and we were at the 1st floor, quarrel with each other but still in good friends.. i never been such feelings.. the best friend i ever get.. i was.. so happy.. and.. tears start to flow when i know my buddy soon will leave me 1 day.. i cant stand it.. because i never have such good friend before.. and i also hope that i will continue to stay with this buddy again.. because in school.. only this buddy who willing to become my listener.. only this buddy who will force me to say out the unhappy things in my heart and will advice me to relieve me.. it's hard to find such good buddy.. how would i willing to lose this good friend??

i'm tension enough.. many things happen

haiz.. so many things happen.. i don't even know what i going to do.. haiz.. i don't even know why i can treat ppl so nice.. but in the opposite way.. they treat me like 'kanasai'.. i juz don't know why.. haiz.. should i quit becoming so call.. good guy.. and juz become who i'm only.. without caring what other ppl think of me.. don care what they say me.. don't care what they backstabed me.. i losing 1 very very good friend.. soon.. i juz don't know whether i will see this friend ever again or not.. i gonna miss this friend.. haiz.. ever since i come kl.. when i meet this friend.. my tears sometimes will flow.. haiz.. i juz wish i can take care of this friend.. but i think it's impossible.. haiz.. nothing much i can do also.. haiz.. who can help me.. nowadays.. my heart very pain.. my mood is bad.. no mood practice.. no mood chat or even sms.. haiz.. how can i improve??? i juz don't know what is the next step i can do.. what my heart really want now is.. i juz wish i can accompany my very very best friend to wherever this friend go.. there are many things which i don't even know how to express.. haiz..

over!!! too over!!!

i cant believe i will have such classmate.. if u wan backstabbed me plz say it in front of me.. u are not as good as anyone!!! haiz.. 24/6 is semester 1 choir exam.. well.. this idiot guy.. keep on blaming other ppl.. come on.. plz.. use ur fucking brian.. choir is about team work.. NOT blaming on other ppl!!! and WHY U BLAME MY FRIEND AND SAY HE SING WRONG U DAMN BLOODY IDIOT!!! i know u are good in ur major instrument... but it doesn't mean that u are good in everything.. u don't know anything about music!!! make me real angry when i heard that.. if ever again u say my friend.. i will not let you go that easily!!!! damn u!!! i doesn't know why teacher say u play ur instrument better then mine.. damn u damn u!!!!! i cant even think of it.. i don't even know why i will have this such 'good' classmate.. i don't even know how long i can stand facing u.. sorry.. that many bad words used in this blog.. but i cant stand it le.. he is a JERK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur table manners are worse and i don't enjoy my food whenever i sit together with u in a same table.. u are worse then a jerk.. slp in the class while teacher are talking in front.. say till so proud u wake up so early for jogging.. so what!!! so also can wake up on 4am.. not only u.. u dumb head.. my hometown wake up at 3am.. and yet they din even complaining about anything.. proud of yourself that u wake up that early.. fuck you la...

haiz.. sad but what i can do??

haiz.. many things happen but there is nothing i can do.. haiz.. i don't know what i can do anymore.. i losing something important in my life again.. i don't wish this to happen.. but soon it will happen.. i'm sad.. tears flowing from my eyes again.. and i don't know what i going to do.. haiz.. i wan2 cry out loud and hug u and saying i will follow you wherever u go and stay by ur side and will never leave u.. this is what i willing to do and i will never regret on what i said.. haiz.. but i know that this won't happen.. i truely sad.. and tears started to flow from my eyes as i started to write this blog.. only god can give me ans on what i should do.. i really cant forget the happiness we gone together.. it's so memorable.. but.. haiz.. it's just like the end of my world.. i will go back to a lonely place where i belong to as usual.. haiz.. someone!!!!! plz!!! i'm sad!!!

sad! But what to do?! I losing myself..

haiz..love a person..but the feeling very sad..haiz..why when we like a person we bad do everything for them? We can help them carry thing, stay back at school to wait for them, accompany them eat althought we owned self have taken our lunch? Haiz..but end up..we get nothing..haiz..love a person real hard..we cant get what we wan and end up, the person who hurt the most is me..haiz..but what to do? We can only accept it and let our heart pain..the same goes with me..love a person but cant have it..haiz..but end up know something which i couldn't accept and i have to accept it with my heart broken..the feeling was pain, tears flow, worried, and many more unhappy feeling..sad! Why this happen to me! I'm sad! I cry every night in silence but no one know and no one even wan2 bother to know..haiz..my heart know broke into million of pieces with tears flowing from my eyes..i losing myself..

haiz.. what i wish for will gone in a blink of a eye..

i will never find true love.. and now.. i din hope for it as i know i will not get it.. when i love a person so much.. is either they will leave me or they will not even care bout me.. haiz.. so, wat is the point for me to find true love so hard.. i now.. don feel to have 1.. i wan2 turn to a cold blooded person which don even wish to care ppl beside me.. ppl beside me have 2 face.. liar.. bloody person.. i won even trust them anymore.. i wan2 be cold blooded.. i'm hurt worse.. my heart cries every night.. but no ppl understand me.. no ppl even bother to care wat is my feeling is.. i was so so so hurt and sad.. really emo-ing.. haiz.. but wat i can do.. nothing!! i'm juz a piece of jerk.. haiz.. now.. no1 can change me back to who i really am.. unless a person.. but, it's useless.. haiz..

haiz..what am i to you actually!

haiz..certainly many things happen..haiz..i feel losing someone really important to me..haiz..why..when i meet someone who i think is 100% perfect we cant be together? Haiz..wad i can do is stand aside do nothing..haiz..another thing which i very hurt..a person from my hometown..haiz..i help you so many things, i treat you so good, i treat you like my owned siblings..when i come kl..you din even care of me, ask how i'm..when i feel wan2 ask how are you, you will think i kepo..b4 i come kl..got secret we share together, got anything we share together..when i go kl..you din even find me..ask why? You give me stupid reason.. I dwn feel like being used..haiz..but you wont read my blog and you wont even bother to know how i'm..tat's the main reason i dwn to come back to hometown..coz you din even wan2 care about me..when i tell you i sick..you din even bother, haiz..wad can i do..i'm sad..i'm missing you over here but you at other side happy..din even care of me..i'm speechless and heart-broken..you will call me do things when i at kl..when i do good..you praise me with other way..when i did bad..you say me..critic me..come on!! I'm not your dog..i feel useless but i love you too much..but wad i can do? Haiz..nothing! Nothing!

best friend...

best friend is hard to find.. when u find 1 appreciate them.. talk with them.. smile with them.. share with them.. feel their heart beat.. don leave them alone.. accompany them in no matter what circumstances.. share happy, sad, anger,sorrow moment with them.. because they are.. truly.. the one.. who.. is willing to standby 24 hour there.. listen to every of ur complain.. every of ur words which came out from ur heart.. they are the only person who can be by ur side to listen to ur sound.. the shoulder for u to lean on when u are crying.. shoulder for u to lean when u are tired.. they don't mind and don care what personal identity u have.. they don't even care whether u are rich or poor.. they will still be beside u.. never leave u alone.. they wont mind and wont angry at u although u angry at them.. they will forgive u if u have done wrong.. when u have financial problem.. they will help u.. lend u money.. treat u eat.. when u need someone to go shopping, go to a destination, they are the one who accompany u.. when u having any problem.. they will crack their big brain and help u in settle the problem.. they will chat with u.. understand more about u.. because they treat u as their friend.. a friend which is beyond the line of best friend.. but.. there is always a but.. once u lost them.. forever u lost them.. best friend are hard to find.. the feeling of losing a friend.. is pain.. appreciate them while still can.. tell ur best friend how much u love them.. when u lose them.. ur life will be meaningless.. a sudden empty space is left inside ur heart.. appreciate them.. tell them how much u love them.. friends are hard to find.. now as friend.. forever a best friend....! a friend which is 100% perfect.. appreciate

8th may concert..

the day is my school having concert.. it's ladies night concert.. so fun.. the song was nice.. and i only snap photo with my friends.. i'm so happy to have them as my friend.. i will appreciate them a lot.. thx for willing to become my friend.. thx.. u all will forever stay in my heart and u all will be my best friend forever.....

SAD, DISAPPOINTED, AND HEART BROKEN...

how can u do like that to me.. do u know u have hurt me?? u din even investigate what is going on actually and u blame me for not locking the door.. i'm so hurt.. me, and my other 2 friend went to school to claim the SPM cert.. that's fine.. i went to the fucking room.. ok.. i have the key.. and this X fella enter, ok.. that's fine.. i welcome u as my friend and a good bro.. that's also fine.. i say i wan go upstair for awhile.. u say u don't want to go.. ok..i said to the X fella "u stay at the fucking room and take care of the room as well".. but i doesn't know once i left the room things change.. i'm not the last person to go out from the room they say i'm the last to get out from the room.. din lock the drill, din lock anything.. i'm the one who cause 'SOMEONE' get blame.. but i'm not the last person who get out from the room.. is the X fella who is the last person to get out.. fine.. fine.. i get all the fucking blame without any investment and seek out which fucking person is the last to come out from the room.. ok.. that's fine.. i don't want to say so much.. thanks for the god to give me such good memory in my brain forever.. i will remember u all in my big brain.. FOREVER!!!!!

All i Ask of You

No more talk of darkness;
forget these wide-eyed fears;
i'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears,
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Say you'll love me every walking moment,
turn your head with talk of summertime,
say you need me with you now and always,
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all i ask of you.

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light,
your safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you,

All i want is freedom,
a world with no more night,
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Then say you'llshare with me one love, one lifetime,
let me lead you from your solitude,
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all i ask for you.

Say you will share with me one love one lifetime,
say the word and i will follow you.

Share each day with me, each night each morning,

Say you love me..

you know i do..

Love me, that's all i ask of you,
anywhere you go let me go too,

Love me..
That's all i ask of you..

i miss u all..haiz..

i miss my parents, miss my hometown piano, miss my hometown bed, miss my friend miss many things and unforgettable.. i miss my bro.. haiz.. i'm useless big bro la.. promise tat i will come back and give support to my bro but lastly i break everythings.. i dno whether izit he hate me or wat.. but i don wish this to happen but it happen. i couldn't make it back to hometown..sorry cant change everything.. but only thing is he believe me the reason i couldn't make it back..haiz.. my friend say i change a lot after i come kl.. but i doesn't know izit true.. but if yes.. i'm sorry.. haiz.. again sorry is not a word.. but as long as i din turn bad and i din forget my old friend tat is enough for me.. i don care wat ppl talks bout me i don even care how ppl backstab me and i don care how ppl look at me.. as long as i din turn bad and my bro believe in me.. tat's enough..haiz..

semester 1 in mia...

i still remember a day before i came to kl and further my studies tat is on 4th january.. well.. kinda sad when have to leave my hometown.. but wat to do haha.. i'm lucky i meet 2 friend and also a good housemate.. they are from klang and seremban.. well next day is the day where all semester 1 student will come over and study.. i'm scared but it's all right.. everything will be fine for a beginner musician.. everything change as my music knowledge grown more and more deep.. i meet many good friend which is from all over m'sia.. from johor, kedah, kl, sabah and sarawak and many more..haha well.. during this semester 1 got good and bad things happen.. althought can't name it all but mostly is good and i have alot of good friends here.. and i thank the god for giving me so many friends.. my teachers were good and the student were willing to share knowledge with me.. i join orchestra at cheras and they were all welcome me.. although school exam were much more harder then secondary exam but it time for me to do it with every of my music knowledge.. piano and flute are improving.. those method which i used wrongly in playing the flute improve a lot and thanks to my teacher of course.. if he din teach me then i think i will still playing the flute with the wrong method.. well.. juz tat sometimes something bad happen will make me unhappy and during final there were something bad really happen and make me couldnt do well in my final.. haiz.. but now.. everythings over.. and i will move on to semester 2 but before i move, there were a alumi homecoming dinner and a choral festival concert tat i need to attend.. well i will do all my best in singing in the choir.. haha.. well.. 23/4 is my semester 1 end day.. haha.. well say bout my housemate.. almost every night me and my roommate will talk about a teacher bad things and gossip.. haha.. and we grow fatter and fatter every night and they say because of me they fat.. haiz.. wat to do.. but i having a very very fun time [with them during the period i staying in hostel.. well.. i going to move to my original house and my roommate will move to other place to stay.. haiz.. i gonna miss them a lot.. haha.. when the 1st time we came.. almost everyday we went to a restaurant which we change the name to rm6.50 coz the food is all in the price of rm6.50 and there are many choices.. haha.. well.. it's the end of semester 1 and i will add on some story if i remember.. haha

meaning of life..

You lovely art, in how many dark hour,
when i am enmeshed in life's wild tumult,
have you kindly my heart to a warmer love,
have you transported me into a better world,

Often a sigh, escaping from your harp,
a sweet holy chord from you has opened up a heaven of happier timea,
you lovely art.

I thank you for this...

sorry

wow.. it's been a long while i din touch my blog and it's time to type something into it.. lolz.. well.. been bz for many things.. studies.. haiz.. at last final coming.. i was so scared tat i couldn't manage to pass.. same to my practical.. haiz.. anyway i will try my best.. lolz.. after semester 1 finish.. there are a lot of event coming on such at alumi night dinner and concert.. so cant manage to go back to hometown.. so sad.. but at least i have a week holiday.. haiz.. better then none.. lolz.. well.. paper exam coming, choir exam coming, aural exam coming, practical exam coming.. haiz.. tension.. wat i can do is study study study, pract pract only.. haiz.. but i will try my best..many things i wan2 write but i have forgotten almost 50% of it already.. haha.. so very sorry.. anyway if i remember then i will write it down.. haha.. exam coming.. i see all my college friends are tension v it.. i hope all of u will do ur best in ur exam.. gambattey.. haiz.. e on my blog la.. keep update as i will try to think back wat to write.. lolz...

my friend's birthday celebration at sunway pyramid

HAIZ!!!!!!!...

it's been weeks i din wrote my blog.. i guess there are a lot of things i wan2 write.. haha.. haiz.. performance day.. quite ok bout my performance but i play lot's of wrong notes.. haiz.. but at least i can manage to overcome my fear.. i receive a news tat 1 of my friend going to leave the school coz of some reason.. not to be say i'm sad.. but juz don't understand why she leave coz of stupid reason.. haiz.. exam.. mid term exma.. sigh.. sad.. coz of tat exam i din slept well.. so tired now.. sigh.. wat to do.. haiz.. 4 things happen to me in 1 day.. suckz.. i cant believe tat i'm suck bad in my pratical, i think i going to failed in my traditional music subject.. choir.. i sang so badly.. haiz.. every bad luck came to me in a time.. i cant imagine.. haiz.. wat am i gonna do is to study hard only.. haiz haiz haiz..

haiz haiz haiz..

these week very very busy.. haiz.. even i have no time to sms or do something else.. haiz.. i have to practice and do assignment.. and mid term exam coming.. so hard.. i suffer alot althouh i at home do nothing.. haha.. but i will start to study more from today onward.. haha.. i was happy tat at last i can go to orchestra.. my 1st song to play is symphony no. 5 by beethoven.. when i get the sore today.. i cant imagine the life at orchestra on saturday.. haiz.. so hard.. tat was juz the 1st song.. i cant imagine wat gonna happen if suddenly the senoir give me new song to sight-read.. haiz.. wa.. mid term is on next week.. i scared i will failed in my exam.. haiz.. help me!!!!

my friend birthday

haha.. on 15th february.. i celebrate birthday v my friend.. haha..so fun.. i can go for ice skating at sunway piramid.. tat was the 1st time i went for ice skating it's was fun althought i drop down.. althought it's hurt but it was fun.. haha.. although the day at kl having traffic jammed.. but we still manage to enjoy ourselve.. the next day i felt sick.. coz of the weather.. sigh.. the next day all my friend fall into sick.. but luckily i gave them some herbal tea to drink.. haha.. it's was a memorable day tat woth to remember..haha..

the day when we went Rawang waterfall, 6th February..

the day when we have our steamboat dinner at the hostel..

After New Year..

gosh.. came back to kl again.. sigh.. but luckily monday is wilayah public holiday.. no class on monday.. haha.. but..still i din have much time to rest.. (sigh-ing).. monday rest, tuesday, wednesday, thursday study.. ish.. sucks.. but luckily.. friday we did enjoy ourself.. the seniors organise a trip to waterfall in Rawang, KL.. was fun.. and there are many monkey climbing around and i enjoy chasing the monkey.. haha.. playing water at the waterfall and sing together..now even worse.. no voice already.. haha.. pity.. photo will be updated later.. plz wait.. haha.. although tired but it's worth it.. lolz.. haha.. was so cold in the water.. haha i think i will get sick tonight.. tat's the story for 2day.. haha.. will update next time

boring new year

haiz.. tis chinese new year was so boring.. nothing to do.. day 1 stay at home.. so boring.. same v day 2.. till day 3.. i could manage to go out.. but it was not fun as i have to go to clinic and visit the doc.. i wast rm540 on the clinic..coz of my terrible acne on my face.. lolz.. boring.. nothing to do at all.. haiz.. going back to kl again.. not feeling well summore.. wat terrible life i passing through now.. suckz.. =( i wondering wat am i gonna do there as there's holiday on monday.. no clss.. no office.. cant practice at all.. haha.. stay at home slp whole day.. haha.. well i hate ppl who late and i don't like to wait ppl and i don't like ppl to wait me.. tis happen when we having gathering.. they are not punctual at all.. sigh.. a bit disappointed with them.. luckily i still manage to enjoy myself v my friend and also.. the porker cards.. well.. i feel there's someone who keeping a lie behind me.. and i hate it.. he think i knows nothing..but in the staring.. i knew alot of it and i knew everything.. u can continue keeping the lie by not letting me noe the truth.. when i ask u.. u lie to me.. fine!! we shall see wat's happening next.. i shall remember till the day i die!! and till the thing happen.. i shall never treat u as my friend anymore..

hello hello

jammed for mosly an hour only can pass through the traffic at kl..tired..not even have lots of rest at kl..sleep so late but wake up so early..haiz..tired..wow..my friends were cool..haha..crazy also..i think i wont be having homesick coz i have them accompany me when i miss my hometown..haha..study was terrible..hard to catch up..tired summore..die lo die lo..hopefully during chinese new year will get enuf money to use at kl..expenses was so high..not enuf money use la..die dy die dy..how?? haha..think lo..work or dont spend so much will do gua..haha..anyway..study is more important den everything else..haha..well..i miss everyone at my hometown..hehe..well..the picture is my new friends..they are friendly..i like to be v them coz they could make me happy..hehe..thx for being my friends..love u guys..

Haiz....

Week 2 le.....so suffer....not enuf sleep....eat not full....sleep not well....tired la.....sigh....help...have to independent...althought i miss my hometown but i still cant manage to go back......many things to do....assignment,practice and many more ......even have to prepare for concert.....sign....gonna die soon....i have to sleep very late coz of homework.....many homework to do......althought this semester still got some free time to play....but when play got it's time and study got it's time........althought chinese new year coming but i'm not really celebrating coz of studies and practice.....sigh......what should do is.....study practice study practice.....gambattey.....althought it's suffering but i still have to force myself to accept it for 3 year.......

my 1st day of school

5th january.. my school start..gosh.. i need at least half an hour to walk to school.. well.. during this 1st week.. nothing much happen.. but my class consist of 10 ppl.. and 1 of them were korean girl.. i still remember on the second day.. she play us a song called 'kiss the rain' the song was nice.. touching.. full of meaning..many of the seniors came out and watch at her performance.. it was a nice performance of 'kiss the rain' and i can only give a word.. tat is NICE.. well.. of course i will know new friends, new housemate and so on.. they were friendly and they help me alot in classes or house.. haha.. although it's suffer in going to classes.. coz the road is dangerous and the road is not safe at all but i still can manage to survive in a forcing condition..haha.. food were expensive..i wish i could cook myself.. but it seems like it's hard.. haiz.. well.. i think i meet quite friendly friendly friend which will willing to help out when i were fed up in something.. shall appreciate this friend alot.. well.. nothing much happen.. sing sing sing, practice practice practice, assignment assignment assignment.. nothing else le..haiz.. gambattey be hoo kit...